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finally got most of the first test result

as usual

i am of cuz the top scorer -.-

mayb cuz got competition ba~~

tmr another test

sienz~~

whatever la~~

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i so hate two sided-face ppl~~

fuck this kind of ppl lar

gave me loads of crap with serious look

and at the end of the day they do another thing

these kind should just go back and burn in hell~~

well

welcome to life

the onli truthworthy person in the world is ourself!!

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i found out that i am being more and more spontaneous

well

at the very least i think is good news

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i done crapping edi~~

aza aza fighting!!

Movie marathon

Watched three movie in three consecutive days

watched A-team with kok

watched karate kid with wang teng and kok

watched ip-man with wang kok and sue jin

it's hard to believe

but kok is quite 'can go' de ppl lai de wor

mayb cuz his life here is so lifeless ba

haha

i still got lot movie wan watch ar!!!

hoho

i just found out that there are new movie release

muahahaha

this week is gonna be a good good week

nah

most probably wont de

well

it's my life

no choice to life

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i seem to finally delete a grand total of 16K+ text messages

dun really feel like letting it go

but no choice wor

Aiks >.<~~

sienz edi~~

my body tem raising edi~~

muahaha~~

i wanna die edi lar~~

my lips and ulcer causing a lot of pain ar~~

aiks~~

tao hin hin oo~~

good night ladies and gentlemen~~~

Suey or not suey??

What the f*ck!!~~

just joking~~

i dun feel what-so-ever pissed even that my day today was completely a mess~~

mayb i am just too tired to care~~~

lets start from the beginning~~

woke up cuz of my bro early morning even when i onli have afternoon class~~

well~~

there goes my morning~~

since i was at grandma house~~

i decide to clean the car throughly since no matter what i also cant sleep ler~~

then when i got back home~~

i notice a new stain on the carpet -.-~~

apparently ther was dirt on my slipper~~

how the hell did i get dirt from concrete ground -.-~~

oh wait~~~

i remember something~~

i scratch my fucking car~~

whatever la~~~

the scratch mark was on an old mark~

no one will notice it~~

muahhaha~~

and then i went for class~~

watch 'hot fuzz' in english class~~

and got an assignment on evaluation~

and physics class got cancel cuz tieng din came~~

some good news after all~~

then out of no where i gian wan watch movie~~

since today got kaki wor~~

watch lor~~~

at jj my slipper de joint break le~~

-.-~~

sucks man~~

whatever la~~

about time edi~~

well~~

be positive in every way ba~~

i am so carefree today~~ wow~~

happy go lucky ba~~

feel like sleeping early la ~~

muahaha~

please dun fucking rain -.-~~

have mercy on me ya~~

Pissed!!~~

heng ar~~

wtf is this??

all plans made edi like tat suka suka cancel wor~

fuck lar~

nowadays de ppl is got damn give face de lar~~

before talk before taking action is dun use brain and think de~~

sienz edi lor~~~

nowadays de ppl is so damn hard to jio de~~

frustrated edi~

sad sia~~

what to do??

this kind of friends oo~~

never mind lor ~~

stay at home whole day do so hai~

好奇心

难道你就不想知道我后悔没做的事是什么吗？

我不会在这告诉你，

因为你只会像对昨天的那两件事的看待，

随便敷衍的带过，

就是好讨厌你凡事都这样的听过就算了。

你知道吗，

你好有本事哦，

竟然能把我耍得团团转，

经常把我搞得半空吊，

一时能让我觉得我自己好傻，

抱着假希望，

一时能让我心软，

想要每个时刻都在你身边照顾你，

要是真的问你你想怎样，

你一定会回答说我可以不必管你之类的笨蛋答案吧，

因为你就是这样的嘴硬！！

到了现在你还是不肯依赖，

连要我叫醒你都开不了口，

开了口又婆婆妈妈的，

今天早上说你，

你竟然说我在骂你，

其实是想告诉你，

我知道你有多累，

我今天这样讲你，

你因该是不会再要我叫醒你了吧？

大笨蛋就是大笨蛋！！

WHAT THE FUCK!!??

why cant you just learn to appreciate things?

do you know that when u start appreciating then all of our lives will be better mar??

fuck you~~

-.-~~

think dao you also pissed ar!!

suan le~~

if u really learn how to appreciate then i am not scolding here edi~~

FML!!~

Aarrggghhh~~

pain pain pain ~~

>.<~~~

fuck ar!!

my mouth very pain ar~~~

dunno why like tat ar~~

mouth inside got ulser and my lips cracking~~

>.<~~

very xin ku ar!!~~

i drink a lot of water edi ler~~

yor~~

i dun wan eat anything until recover le lar!!

大笨蛋

你是大笨蛋！！

竟然说出我会讨厌你，

就算我觉得伤的再深，

也不会讨厌你，

不是情侣不代表不再爱你。

大笨蛋！！

竟然说我今天不管你，

不是说好了不再胡思乱想了吗？

其实不是想躲避你，

而是觉得自己还需要时间，

就算是一整天不找你不回你，

就代表我不关心你了？

难道你就不知道早上起床晚上睡前我在想都的是你吗？

大笨蛋！！

天天都要让我担心，

但毕竟是真心喜欢你，

担心你也没什么奇怪的。

大笨蛋！！

竟然说自己是坏人，

是想让我心痛吗？

大笨蛋！！

你真的是好坏！！

竟然能害我爱上你又为你哭，

你真的很有本事，

竟然你然我想缠着你，

永远不离开，

永远陪着你，

永远等着你。

请你别忘记，

你是世上最幸福又最倒霉的，

倒霉是因为你是我这一生中的大笨蛋;

幸福是因为你是我这一生中的大笨蛋，

而我，是在你生命中专属你的大傻瓜。

大笨蛋，大傻瓜永远爱着你哦!!~

无题

就算是对自己说过，

只要你把我推开多一次我就不会再留在你的世界，

我最后还是不舍得，

就算我再想忍着不流眼泪，

我最后还是流泪了，

觉得我很逊吧？

我竟然会相信，

我已找到了我生命中真正的我们了，

原来我找到的只不过是“机会”，

竟然都不喜欢了，

那这“机会”就不因该存在，

难道你就不知道这就是一种爱情的骗局吗？

我不怪你，

毕竟你也只不过想尝试，

其实，我要的不是机会，

我要的是你真心喜欢我，

竟然感觉都不对，

再勉强也是强人所难。

或许我们真的有缘无份吧，

命中注定不成情侣，

在想成为朋友也难了，

毕竟是爱过又伤过。

在此刻，

夜深了睡不着，

怎么呼吁自己不再流泪不再去想，

泪，还是不停地流了下来，

那种又想独自一人，

又不想一个人孤独的感觉，

好辛苦；

就算是大哭一场了，

还是不停的想要哭的感觉，

好累；

想在这刻陪着我，

但又不想看见的人也是你。

我不会就这样一声不响的从你世界消失，

也不会选折死缠乱打地活在你世界，

更不会因为这件事而小气得不理你，

想要却又不知如何鼓起勇气在面对你，

或许我不会再主动找你，

请你原谅我，

但如果你有任何事需要我时，

只要简单的发一封短讯，

我会尽我全力地帮着你。

你说得对，

哭不能改变一切，

哭也不能忘记一切，

但泪始终都留了下来，

我会哭，

不是因为我恨你，

我讨厌你，

我哭是因为我觉得很心酸，

毕竟是真正深爱过你，

就不会讨厌你，

我只不过是再找不回相信和面对你的勇气，

我好怕。

我还是会想和你道谢，

因为虽然不会很直接，

但最终还是跟我坦白，

还有你所给我的回忆，

我会怀念你的关心，

怀念你的野蛮，

怀念你的一切，

你不必担心，

我答应你我会好好的过这我生活。

Haiz~~

I dunno what happen these few days le~~

got some weird weird de feeling~~

like we be together le jiu got one gap between us mysteriously formed~~~

aiks~~

i wanna drop into the gap and die~~ muahaha~~

-.-~~

i really question your action de ~~~

suan ler~~no point saying ler~~~

you also dun care ba~~

@.@

i dun wanna guess le i dun wan ask ler~~~

i wait for you to tell me~~

hmm~~~

time flies so fast~~~

we been living in a special way in each other life~~

mayb i jiu shi attracted to you cuz you special ba~~

baby~~i love you~

"Lor lor"

aiks~~~

today ah hong ask me one very good question

y i got gf edi become more "lor lor" de look de~~

>.<~~

i dunno the answer~~

....

or at least i know but dunno how to ba~~

haiz~~

dunno ooo~~~

today so pekcek sia~~~

wake up jiu tau hin hin oo~~

aiks~~~

somemore simply think about lot things~~~

*bang*

wake up wake up~~

cannot afford to waste time ler~~~

aza aza fighting!!

Random

Aiks~~~

today my mood better a lot edi ler~~

muahahaha~~~

sienz jor sienz jor~~

got ppl de mood like not very good wor~~

Teh Shin Yee jie jie oo~~

if tonight u not sleeping so early we keng kai hao mar?

miss you miss you miss you oo~~

i wait for you to find me le lor~~

today din go see your performance >.<

yor~~

my family went out say go shopping

when they come back i onli know they go kp

=x

sorry~~~

Frustrated

haiz~~

very cham de lar~~~

so many things happen today~~

i very mang zhang edi lar!!

i fucking wanna scream!!

these few days i keep bad mood bad temper onli~~

i feel like crying le~~

tomorrow night also dunno can go see baby or not de~~

first of all~~

something happen to baby~~

>.<~~~

luckily she okay~~~

today her mood sure not good edi de lar~~

haiz~~>.<~~

then there is the problem with winnie they all

aiks~~~

wan go out also so hard~~

so many pattern~~

dun wan go out with them edi lar!!!!!!!

yor~~~

in addition~~~

i dunno what the fuck is wrong with my family~~

now i dun even know whether i wanna be with them tmr or not~~

suan ler~~

my temper is going to kill me one day~~

and the day is coming soon ler~~

cheers to my death -.-

suan ler~~~

wan say out everything jiu reach tmr edi lar~~

haiz~~~

someone come smack me and wake me up pls~~

dear~~~

i wanna talk to you tonight~~~

and hor~~~

go watch this

Fridays

waka waka oh weh eh~~~

-.-

fridays should be my day to rest de ler~~

and do whatever freaking thing i wan de~~

but end up have to be whole day long de driver -.-

actually thought today 6++ jiu can go home mana tau now so late onli can go home~~

-.-~~~

today first time go i-city oo~~

-.-~~

sua ba hor~~

pretty is pretty but dun have feel~~

aiks~~~

dun wan say this le~~~

>.<~~

baby ar baby~~~

my mood and temper today very terrible again ler~~

i dunno why ar~~

this whole week like tat de~~~

sorry >.<

how terrible also become a bit better after you call and laugh when you tell me about kei de thing~~

and hor~~

you say you dunno what is speed but today speed with other ppl ar??

haiz~~~

>.<~~~

tonight come back free le can let me know mar??

i wanna talk to you~~~

Sleeping time

@.@~~~

why my sleep hour become so fucked up edi de???

cham edi lor!!!

set arlam at 7 but woke up at 6 and 8~~~

-.-~~~

why like tat de??

if is one day onli can say is tired~~

but this whole week also like tat d~~

this cause me to wake baby late onli >.<~~

luckily baby no blame me oo~~~

so good de baby~~~ dai sek~~~

muacks~~~~

but you keep say dun nid wake u oo~~

>.<~~i know you care for me oo~~~

if really dun wan me everyday wake you

then whenever you wan me wake you then you tell me hao mar??

dun ever think tat you are my burden~~

i will get angry de oo~~~

knock your head onli u know hor~~

muahahaah~~~

but i bu she de hurt u ler~~

=p

but i really will angry hor~~

think also cannot!!!

you are never my burden!!

now is time to go to bed ler~~

good night~~

心情指数：负100

today de mood so damn bad le -.-~~
got so much temper i dun feel like controlling
i wanna shout!!
i hate doing experiment without having knowledge on it
somemore got so lebih de ppl come argue with me
use ur brain a bit hao ma~~
whole class onli got two of us~~
u wan wait who give you answer~~
dun bloody think u are superior to me hor~~
i saying de is horng tieng
baby i wan let you know tat actually he is like her onli
sometimes i really hate him very much de
but have to face him everyday
suan le suan le~~
so long d friend de -.-

feel like got lot things have to do~~
mayb this is why i tired~
i used to like using these kind of things to numb myself de~~
but now~~
haiz~~~

tonight i feel like being alone
but i wan you to be with me also~~~
@.@~~~
if i were to choose between this two~~
i wan you to pei me~~~
thanks for caring about me ^^
sorry that when i got you by my side i still so much temper >.<~~~

be a bit patient with me ya~~

sorry baby~~
today you say wan find me eat i also din go~~
i feel tired le~~~
really really sorry~~~
>.<>

time to stop whining edi~~~

tonight no appetite again le~~

like tat continue i will lose more weight le~~

muahaha~~

-.-~~

tonight dun wan online d~~

study!! aza aza fighting!!

累得很想流泪

Tired >.<~~~
baby thought today i no reply u cuz i moody oo??
actually i tired then lie on bed and fell asleep le~~
hear dao msg onli i woke up de~~
i very tired oo~~~
mayb this will cause me my temper and mood ba~~
but its nothing de~~~
sooner or later sure will recover from it de~~
baby dun blame yourself cuz u cant pei me
i know u busy ma~~~
dun simply think oo~
i know you care about me oo~~
thanks~~~
muacksss~~~^^

变态

哦

好累好累噢

今天的脾气还是蛮暴燥

做起事来很没耐心

要睡又睡不着

胃口也不怎么好

没吃几十个钟还是没有饿的感觉

对任何事都不感兴趣

或许是累的关系吧

有些变态倾向的小症状

有种emo的感觉

不可以！

宝贝不喜欢哦~~~

今天又再次地和我姐妹们出去了

这次的感觉好不同哦

感觉上变了好多

不懂咯~~~

因该因为yin chang的关系吧

那明天应不应该出去呢？

今天还算蛮开心的

因为今天有宝贝和我一起出门

好开心好开心好开心哦

就因为有你

你见识我这般三八姐妹了吧

会有一种怪怪的感觉吗？

哈哈

今天是我们在一起的第八天

但是自己感觉上好像很久了

但是爱你不是用日数衡量的

其实我也不知道因改用设么来衡量的哦

只想让你知道无论如何

我还是一样的爱着你

Eff-fu

i wanna shout!!!

STFU!!!!

dun come giv me crap!!

i feel very breathless edi~~~

-.-~~~

get lost!!!

suan ler~~

i wan stay hidden ler~~~

tmr dun wan go out la~~

dun luan lar~~

PS: this got nothing to do with baby

dun simply make claims -.-~~~

good night!!

Drama class

Wootss~~~

i like non restrictive drama class without restriction

muahaha~~~

all the bullshit and funny crap that we can giv n see~~

>.<~~~

today so tired again ler~~~

my temperature raise again le ar!!!!

yor~~~

i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan~~~~~~

Teh Shin Yee

today very guai oo~~~

=p~~

still will msg me tell me things~~~

haha~~ =p~~~

and hor ~~

i very curious why ur name disappear from my relationship status edi de??

>.<~~~~

why like tat de???

@.@~~~

and hor~~~

got something i wanna ask ler~~

but now ask like weird weird de~~~

nvm all this sin~~

most important is u today dun too tired!!!!

today still got ballet until quite late~~

come home le u either rest or do assignment~~

cannot do other thing!!!

muaha~~~ =p

i dunno wat time u will see this le~~~ >.<~~

i am waiting for you oo♥~~~~

Baby

Baby baby baby ooh~~~

u make me the happiest person oo^^

thanks for giving me this chance oo~~~

say dao this i jiu keep smiling le ~~

i will cherish you~~

i may not be the best boyfriend tat is avaible

but i promise you i will try to be the only one you ever wanted

if think back le i realize many things

some may not be good but somehow i glad that all those happen

i learn i was too selfish le~~~

sorry ya~~~

@.@

like dunno talking what hor~~~

see liao also blur~~

what to do??

think of you i jiu will smile ler~~

Teh Shin Yee, I Love You ♥

我多余的想法

不准‘喂’你，因为你觉得这样没礼貌

不叫你‘B a b y’，因为从那次后我不知道你还想不想听见我这么称呼你

不叫你‘D e a r’，毕竟我们还没在一起也需要我们各自的空间

选择不叫你名字，因为觉得我们变得很生疏

一旦提到这话题你总是选择不去面对

为什么哦？？

Gathering

yesterday went to s7 de gathering

dunno hami sai lai~~~

but also predicted tat macam ini edi onli lar~~

i dun expect it to be good also~~

night gathering at lucky 10??

dunno hami lai de la~~`

saw some ppl and feel disgusted lar~~

bloody think they are superior to everyone~~

-.-~~

after wan watch movie also no movie watch~~

good lor~~

go mamak again~~

sampat de~~

next week still got wor???

wan go or not???

dun wan -.-~~

find winnie they all lepak better ~~

muahahaha~~

好想

突然好想就这样不顾一切地大发脾气

或许是不怎么舒服才脾气不好

不然就是累了吧

好像停止上课停止学习

不想再用课业麻木自己

不想再勉强自己学习

好想就这样不顾一切不担心一切地休息

那股还想坚持但又无能为力的感觉

好辛苦

感觉上体温在渐渐的上升

我应该是快要倒了